Ok so this post is a much needed vent and so please understand that some of the things I say in this post are more out of feeling unable to understand everthing that happens in this life.
Our best friends the Miller's baby boy Urban Black was born December 16th, due to a cord being wrapped around his little neck he didn't live. I haven't been able to stop thinking about it since we got the news. Seeing Colby and Meghan just the night before and talking about how excited parenthood was going to be I can't help but ask the question WHY??? Why do they have to go through this, why do they have to suffer. As a friend and someone who hasn't gone through anything like this I couldn't help but want to blame someone, the doctor it had to be his fault, he had to be the reason that my friends were suffering. Then as I talked to Colby and Meg I realized that they didn't blame him, they understood more then I that this was an accident, something that potentially could happen to anyone but I could help but ask WHY THEM? I started to see that each time I visited them they were the strenght for everyone else. I realized how selfish I truly was, here my best friends just lost their precious angel and they were comforting me! Yes they were heart broken and yes they had their moments but for the most part they were the strong one's. And so again I asked WHY THEM, WHY did my friends who were such a strenght to those around them, why my friends who are such amazing people, so strong in the church and so giving why, why why! I am not going to lie, I don't know why I wish I did, I wish I knew what I could say to make the hurt go away, to make them know that everything is going to be ok but I don't. What I do know is that Colby and Meghan love their little boy more then anything in the world. And that whatever love they have for Urban Heavenly father has for them. I know that they will always be Urban's parents, I know that they will see him again, and that they will get to raise him just as they will their other children. I know that I don't understand Heavenly Father's plan for us or for Colby and Meg but I do trust that he has a plan. And that even though they are hurting, and truly no one on this earth understands what they are going through there is someone who does. Christ didn't just suffer on the cross, he suffered all things he is the only one who knows exactly what they are going through and WHY!
So I am here to tell you that I still don't know WHY, I wish more then anything I did but I probably never will. What I can tell you though is that I am so grateful for Colby and Meghan's example in my life. I seriously don't know what I would do without them and their friendship and I look forward to the day when they will get to be reunited with their sweet angel Urban Black. I love you both and please please know that we would do anything for you, if we could take it all away we would. Stay strong like I know you will, we love you!
"Beat it" (by Fall Out Boy)
"He could be the one"
"He could be the one"
"Steal my Kisses"
"Steal my Kisses"
"Boom Boom Pow!"
"Boom Boom Pow!"
"That's not my name"
"That's not my name"
"Say Hey"
"Say Hey"
"Dancing with Myself"
"Dancing with Myself"
"Boogie that be" 
"Boogie that be" 
The Finale
The Finale
Lydia got an early present from her favorite baby sitter Mackenzie, it was a pack n play for a baby...well Lydia got a little Jealous of the baby and kicked her out and took over!
Notice the high heeled shoes...
Complete with baby and stroller, but don't forget the...
Lydia's sweater fit her when I bough it, I think that girl is going through a growing spurt!
Justin and 
